New School Year, New Me

I know I'm just returning to the same college for my second year, but I'm still nervous for school tomorrow. There is tons of new students and it's weird starting again after 3 months. I'm super awkward and I find it weird to talk to people when I haven't seen them in months, but I'm excited for tomorrow also. I'm gonna get to see the couple real friends that I did make and I even have classes with them also. I also feel confidence and encouragement that I didn't have before. I feel like I can do anything and I don't care about others. I feel comfortable in my skin and with myself. Adjusting to change can be tough, especially getting a job and going through the emerging adulthood stage, but I'm liking it and I'm excited for what the future will bring. PS. I fucking love my apartment. It's nice and perfect. I love it. Does not compare one bit to the dorms on campus, haha.

Becoming an Adult

Well, I got a call today and I am officially employed. I was so happy I jumped and laughed hysterically. I start tomorrow, which means I need to move in tomorrow as well. I also start school again on thursday. Times are crazy and everything is going on at the same time. I am so excited for my new life and everything so new and different, but on the overside, I'm really nervous and scared out of my mind. I was stressing a bit about my financial situation, my main support is the financial aid I receive, which is not even close to being enough for food, books, and basic necessities. I can barely pay rent, and things are gonna be tough, but I'm gonna overcome this. I was also stressing out about my living situation and dealing with my two friends, although we are so different and they are very fucking messy. I'm kinda nervous to move in tomorrow, but we gotta try and work things out. I have to be strong and also show my family that I can work with tough and stressful situations. They will never stop bringing the topic of why I didn't choose a closer college and lived at home, but their oppositions won't put me down on my goals and aspirations. I can do this.

Life is Falling into Place

When I have too much spare time, like 3 months of summer vacation, I start to over think life and become an unhappy ogre thinking about all the negative things in life. I'm actually somewhat happy of starting my sophomore year of college next week and I am super duper excited to finally move into my new apartment. I have never lived on my own like this, other than at the dorms at school, and I can't wait to be independent and have a place to myself and some friends.I'm probably moving in next week, but I can't wait. I might be a little down in the dumps the first couple of weeks as it begins to set in that I won't be living close to my family anymore, but once I start living and forgetting about the family problems and troubles, I will be happy with my decision. Life is falling into place again and I am excited for what the future will bring :)

Too many feels

It's probably teen problems, but since last year or so, everything has started to change in my life and I have become very unhappy in life. I used to be very happy and optimistic, but nowadays I seem to always be depressed and unhappy with my life. I though I was doing a good job dealing with change in my life, but I guess not. There is too much drama going on in my family and I just feel overwhelmed with so much going on, like so much responsibility is put on my plate. I wish times were simple, anything used to make me feel happy, and although I can still rely on these things to make me feel better at times, like bike riding or listening to music, depression comes back afterwards and makes me feel even worse. I'm trying to cope and find meaning in my life, a way to bring back the happiness I always had and the great feeling of being content with my life. I just want to feel good about myself and my life.

Concert Junkie

I love concerts. I have tickets for the One Direction concert next week and I just bought tickets for Beach Fossils next month.There is also a Metronomy concert coming up and hopefully I can get tickets too. I just love music, especially indie. Indie music is just so mellow and chill. I love it. I can't wait!! Is there any other artists anyone would might sharing? I love discovering new artists!