Overthinking

When you become infatuated with someone, it is hard not to get carried away and overthink every interaction you have with them. Especially as girls filled with so many emotions and feelings, we can easily replay a moment a million times in our head with different reactions and things we should've said instead of what we actually did say, it is a nightmare; our mind just ponders on past experiences and creates doubts on the smallest things. We get so caught in our head, and it gets in the way of us establishing relationships with others. It's complicated, but I'm learning how to deal with my feelings and to think logically about situations.

Summer Reflection

Summer, a time to enjoy nature and the outdoors; a time to travel and discover the world; a time to overthink life and grow weary. Summer is bittersweet, as it gives me a lot of time to do things, which in turn is a lot of time used for nothing. Summer is a time when I stay home for weeks and deal with the outrageous heat, when I sleep utterly late, watching Netflix non-stop, and contemplate life. This summer was actually way more productive than last year, when I spent two months in Mexico staying indoors and becoming depressed, at least this summer I have slept sometime outside out and about. I got the chance to go to Mexico and travel to the beach, go a couple times to the beach here, attend a free concert, and multiple parties. While my summer was not super productive, at least I spent my time doing something. When I begin to compare my life with others, I begin to grow sad and depressed, in a never ending road to sorrow; but I have learned to realize that doesn't do anything, the life events of others are completely irrelevant and they should not effect the value of my life. I've learned to cope with these feelings, and I have learned to not let it affect me anymore. I don't care. I don't care if others went to Disneyland or Florida, or Sea World, it has no impact on me, as long as I spent time with my family and enjoyed myself, this summer has spent right. I regret nothing I've done this summer as I await school to start in about two weeks, in which I am not really for, I've never been a big people person. I really need to learn how to socialize and hang out with people. I seriously need more friends, REAL friends. School should be fun.